-here without u-
-imagining things-
-unicorns r imaginary-
i m back haha... it 10 years since i last blog.. was kinda bored today so decided to blog.. yesterday was fun cool pack with craziness n stuff... was razy with the rest..u noe campfire so must tt campfire mood.. haha.. everything went on smoothly even the smashing of cake.. haha...it was rachels bdae.. n everything was so grand..haha.. n found out lots of secrets like bao jie stead with the 1e chairman,, justin like tt girl n other stuff.. was cool... bonded with the sec 2 so much because of the sec 1 orientation.. everything was fun cool.. n yeah.. so yeah.. haha.. mr tai complained bout me though.. haix.. was so busy to do hw.. but im lazy n i hate homework.. y nt just give projects.. aint tt gonna rock.. valentine's day coming.. must plan stuff n yeah as usual i think gonna sell roses n song dedication... dun really noe wad to give her this time round.. haix.. last year was 99 roses.. wad about this year? 999? lol.. u re the girl tt ever made me wait for u for so long.. though she appeared in the middle.. i still love u now.. can we start a relationship again? really hope so.. gonna wait for u.. maybe another year or 2 years?
-ilurveu-``
very long nv blog le christmas was a few days ago.. on christmas eve went out with k.leong n dj.. wennt to cathc a movie.. death note 2 was nice.. misa was hot..den wennt to play pool.. lots of ppl there n almost half r yuying ppl..lol.. so waited dor dj bro to stop den we took over played till 10 plus den jas came den went far east there to eat den almost miss the countdown rush out n who noes.. when we were at the traffic light there already 1204 le.. so IT CHRISTMAS..lol.. cant find the party mood in orchard la.. was kinda quiet so wanted to bring up the spirit.. called up lots of ppl...yup u didnt answer course u were gonna watch movie so nvm.. although quite sad la.. but nvm.. called the rest geraldine ong gui jun n yan ming answer though.. the rest NV ANSWER!!!
yup though recieve lots of sms.. but den still no u den sad..
read tt blog.. dunno y kinda jealous la.. but haix.. just dun wan think about u now.. must just let u go..haix.. can nv forget u especially when u gave me those precious n beautiful memories.. can i just ask u for one wish? watch the last sunset with me will u? like tt day on the 3 june.. haix.. maybe i m thinking too much.. y u.. haix.. it time to let go of all my hopes place on u.. gotta concentrate on other stuff now.. haix..
now already 3am in jiang house.. tmr still need to go sch for meeting den after tt goin movie with gui jun n valerie..dun feel like sleeping.. haix
-ilurveu-``
really very long nv blog le.. miss the internet so much
holiday kinda sucks la.. nt work means go sch nt go sch means totally nth to do.. haix.. wan go out oso cannot the rest all working.. den when they free i working.. wth la.. so miss the clips.. bbq on the 29 dec at gi house all must remeber.. haix..
nt everyone paid for the sl camp n kennethleong is in hk.. wah i nt informed of so many things la den still kenna from the rest say wad i alwabes dun come for meeting.. i wasnt even informed of any meeting la.. wth.. even sl meeting cancel oso nv tell me end up i told my department ppl come down.. wth la.. co oso damm sian now la.. haix.. feel like quiting la.. haix.. but nvm.. just continue after all no more other cca to join liao.. haix.. timpani..fun to play la.. but the conductor all expecting too much rite.. i just join nt long leh.. think i m who.. i need time to practice n learn rite.. nv teach me still wan scold me.. ask question still nv answer me still scold me for askin stupid question.. nv even teach me la.. i learn so many things by myself la.. music nt auto produce itself in my brain wan leh.. haix..
sl camp comin le cant wait for it to come.. especially the games.. i inside games comm shiok.. cant wait to play the games but first day of sl camp same day as band concert.. haix.. i wanna go band concert laa.. some more co must go.. haix.. really wanna go but dunno how.. haix.. some more in camp comm siao la.. haix.. damm it.. dunno how.. haix.. but worst this sunday got concert at tampines cc.. wah.. siao liao.. i not using my own timpani.. i scared i nt use to the timpani.. wah.. sian.. i hope is yamaha or adams wan.. haha.. den shiok le.. fri got rehearsal at tampines cc 10am must reach till evening.. siao laa.. wah.. still no costume den must buy black long sleeve n long pants.. wah.. den sat even early 8 am siao la.. so far den so early.. haix... but miss tampines alot.. wonder if will see my frens dere.. miss my pri sch.. n pri sch frens.. wah.. especially my whole house.. i miss tampines laa.. haix.. those were the days when we ran around like nobody business.. haix.. playing non stop.. haix.. sunday concert dun feel like goin.. haix... co so sian la.. the t shirt so ugly some more use for so many generations.. faster create a new wan leh.. n a nicer wan can.. i so wan create next year la.. a dri-fit t shirt n a windbreaker.. haix.. still waiting for one with cca name laa.. wanted such stuff like so long liao la.. haix..
had some funny thoughts theese few days.. haix.. dunno y kept thinking bout u.. do i miss u? maybe.. haix.. just dun really undersand my feelings now.. haix.. had tt weird dream but really hope it could be true.. haix.. maybe i still love u but just cant accept tt fact haix.. really those wish to care bout this stuff le.. haix.. i reallywish all this will slowly fade away but yet its worst.. haix.. rubilyn ask me tt question haix.. but i could nt really answer haix... seriously i dunno now.. haix.. if given a wish.. i would bring back time n treated u better.. haix.. kept thinkin of tt day 030706 1155pm n 110906 1131am.. haix..tt 2 sms which changes my life haix..
ke neng wo hai shi ai ni de
-ilurveu-``
so long nv blog le so decided to try to blog
com really sucks now so hoping tt im a millionaire so i can buy myself my own laptop
haix n if i have tt money i wont be thinkin of wad to buy for ur bdae le haix.. really cant forget u de go everywhere see everything sure think of u haix.. just wish all these memories will fade off a little haix.. it still hurtin me whenever i think of those times i just cant forget 2 days 3 june n 3 july
3 june when we went sentosa for the balloon hat festival haix.. really love tt day so much just before i went china i get to spent the whole day with u haix
den
3 july tt very special day at night 1155 pm haix.. when u said yes haix.. tt very memorable day haix just love it so much but now everytime i think bout it, its killing me haix..
just hope to start everything anew haix now it her jeanne haix.. really love u but den haix it very difficult will u change just a little bit? i really hope u wont be vulgur haix it like so... dunno how to say
my wish for next year is for u to not be vulgur =D
so cool
haix last in level sian have to waste another 1 year in yuying course retain sian
when can i start work? argh
fri work one day in harbourfront den sunday n monday oso went there
sun went to buy speaker den mon went to repair jiang camera after their sch i no sch haha
saw bella there on monday
we all miss u bella
contact us!!!
sian just no mood for lots of stuff now
co camp coming up next weekhaix.. wish u were gg for exco camp den i can see u haix..
just gonna forget bout everything n start everything anew
all i need was my cliques friends n u
have i ever occured in ur mind
i love u for who u r
but if u could change tt one bit
i love u even more
will u change for me
-ilurveu-``
do i really lurve u
or m i just using u to run away from reality
wad is love
is love suppose to be hurtful
is this love
maybe i love u
maybe i dont love u
wad the meaning of true love
r u the one i really love
or is she the one i really love
y is there so many options in love
i really cant decide
just wish i noe none of u
-ilurveu-``
does the love still continue
read through all ur posts again
but even though it has already ended for so long
i still felt the pain
the miseries losing u
miss those times alot
just not use to the new me
y must everything happen like this
y cant we be like before
y must u do some stuff
n made me remember of rubilyn
y didnt u come when i needed u
y was it rubilyn who helped me tt time
maybe u shuldnt be blame
i shuld be blame for not treasuring u
one can nv 100% forget anybody
but the was tt chance tt made me fell in love with rubilyn again
if given a chance i would still continue
n bring time back
if i noe i will hurt u i rather not start it
still feeling the sadness now whenever i see u
really miss those times we had together
-sad n lonely-
miss those times when we were together
those times walking with u
those times when
u gave me love when i touch u
when u gave me strength when i need them
when u gave me warmth when i hold u
when u guided me when i held ur hands
when u gave me joy when i went out with u
now everytime when i walk
all i feel is the wind brushing through my skin
where r u to give me those warmth i need
where r u when i needed ur love
where r u when i was sad n needed u joy
where r u when i was weak n needed u to give me strength
where r u when i was lost out there
is this the end of everything?
or this is only the beginning
will there be a 2nd part
do we still share tt love?
really can nv forget u
just cant erase u of my mind
wad ever i do i think of u
i dream of u
this is the story of my mind
it like a maze
will i reach the end
or give up half way
will everything repeat itself to those happy times?
or will it just end like this
u shall end the story
... ...
to be continued
-ilurveu-``
blogged purposely for u.. wanted to let u noe even though u regretted.. i did not regret at all.. really lurve those times together.. those memories were inforgetable.. i will nv forget u no matter how.. those times we spent together in sentosa watching the sunset in sch watching the primary sch band syf in town the first time i went out with u.. everyday sending u home.. the no of hours waiting for u to be released.. i nv regret a single moment at all.. i will nv ever forget u..
u will always be remembered.. thanks for those unforgetable memories.. i lurve it n will nv forget it at all..
-ilurveu-``
haix.. com spoil.. had boring days for the week except for saturday..
saturday was fun.. went out in the morning supposed to study but instead went to tampines n back again.. went to meet the rest after tt to play basketball at hua guo san den she went find her friends.. it was long since we last went out.. n it was the first time we went together alone.. u came down after tt again n played one match.. hahax.. was fun nv played with u before.. haix.. just lurve the time i spent with u..
this should be the end of our relationship but not the end our friendship.. even though i dun lurve u like before.. hope we could still be friends.. hope tt u wont avoid me..
-ilurveu-``
